25 going 18

the proclaimers: 500 miles

today is my sister's birthday. happy 25th! if you ask her she'd insist she is 18. she has been for the past 5 years. maybe 6.

she is very different from me. she is tall. i'm not. she's bloody nosey and shamelessly digs out private information from family and friends. i am just not interested in other peoples love lives or penis size ( but i'll eventually find out because she'll tell me against my will ). she's sociable. i dont like people on the whole. gimme a dog anytime.

so to my sister;

our brother is more worried about you than he is of me because he thinks you need his constant protection. he is losing his younger sister and it is hard for him to accept that. so he will do anything to keep us together as kin till the end of our days, even bend his proud head to a stranger for your sake. i wouldnt do it myself. so look at him kindly and dont forget that what you have now is due to him.

our parents sometimes dont sleep at night thinking about you. they, like our brother worry and believe that you will be manipulated by some asshole and they wont be there to save you. but deep inside they are proud of you and love you just the way you are. remember that they are getting older and may not be with us for long. appreciate them for what they done for you in the past and at present, all things great and small. looking at some of the parents here they long for their childrens' independence of them and as soon as they are old enough the kids are 'sent out to the real world' aka kicked out of the house. but most asian parents ours included are willing to give their last pennies to give us opportunities that many cannot dream of. so treat our parents with respect and a little humility. it is the least we can do.

sheryl crow: the first cut is the deepest

you and me..a whole other ball game. we fight a lot and allow insults to fly all over the house. but the bottom line is that we are sisters and always will be. i might not agree with all your decisions but i do respect that it is yours to make. i feel protective over you and think you deserve the best. nothing will ever be good enough for my sister. understand that it is hard for me to just accept any of your decisions that will alter our lives forever. not just yours and mine; everyone's around us. but believe me when i say that i will respect it and wont try to question your judgement. like most, i just need a little adjustment.

il divo: ami manera ( my way )

i hope you have a good birthday. i know how it feels to be far from home and from loved ones. but as we get older priorities change and responsibilities get heavier upon our shoulders. i know i didnt send you anything but here's something for you on your birthday from one of my favourites.

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
and sorry i could not travel both
and be one traveller, long i stood
and looked down one as far as i could
to where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair
and having perhaps the better claim
because it was grassy and wanted wear;
though as for that passing there
had worn them really about the same,

and both that morning equally lay
in leaves no steps had trodden black.
Oh, i kept the first for another day!
yet knowing how way leads on to way,
i doubted if i should ever come back

i shall be telling this with a sigh
somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and i-
i took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference.